Omer – Day 46
Barukh ata Adonay, Eloheynu Melekh ha-olam, asher kid’shanu b’mitzvotav v’zivanu al s’firat haOmer.
Blessed be the Eternal God, Ruler of the universe, who makes us holy through Mitzvot and has commanded us to count the Omer.
Hayom yom arbaim ve shesh laOmer, shehem shisha shavuot ve arba’a yammim laOmer.
Today is day forty six of the Omer, which is six weeks and four days of the Omer.
netzakh be malkhut – victory within nobility; conquest within rule
It always comes back to the only victory being one over oneself and the only person I can rule being me. Sometimes the bad habits I have seem like they’re stronger than I am. For me, whether or not it’s noble, sometimes my victories are tiny. I didn’t waste time on that facebook article and answered an e-mail from a friend instead. I read the good book I was recommended instead of the cookie. I got off my chair to get a glass of water, and stayed away from the free doughnuts. These are my victories.
What happens when I don’t succeed? I have less time, less energy, less ability – less that I can give to the family and friends that I am responsible for. Really, when I indulge in wasteful behaviours, I’m stealing. I’m taking time and money, energy and resources away from what I should be doing, both for others and for myself. The ten commandments say not to steal. Today, I rededicate myself to being the best Anna I can be. When I succeed, that’s a noble victory.