Omer – Day 25
Barukh ata Adonay, Eloheynu Melekh ha-olam, asher kid’shanu b’mitzvotav v’zivanu al s’firat haOmer.
Blessed be the Eternal God, Ruler of the universe, who makes us holy through Mitzvot and has commanded us to count the Omer.
Hayom yom esrim ve hamesh laOmer shehem shlosha shavuot ve arba’a yammim laOmer.
Today is day twenty five of the Omer, which is three weeks and four days of the Omer.
netzakh be netzakh – victory within victory; conquest within conquest.
There are areas where victory is easy. Some of us are born smart enough that acing a math competition is no challenge. Some just have speed in our legs, or are pretty strong to start with or have an easy way of talking to people and so become the class president in junior kindergarten. It’s lovely to win that way – it feels good to have that accomplishment under one’s belt.
But then, there’s the areas where we, frankly, stink. Where our left feet trip over our right as we dance, where we add two and two and consistently get five, where we can’t say boo to a person we’re attracted to. These can even interfere with the areas we’re good at. It doesn’t matter how good at math I am, if I can’t present the information because I’m not good at public speaking, I can’t be an excellent math teacher.
Winning in such an area is not easy – not for me. It takes forever. I have to try and practice and try again. I grind my teeth a lot. I force myself to restart frequently. This being me, I have to watch for procrastination activities that keep me from trying. It’s embarrassing. It’s annoying. I don’t like it. I wish I didn’t have to bother – maybe I should stick to the stuff I’m good at? That’s safest, best, right?
Oh, but it’s lovely to finally succeed and have a moment, however slight, of victory in one of those areas. When I push and work and try and learn and change and grow and become more – when I take what God gave me and transform it to something even more beautiful and strong and capable – that is victory within victory.
Today, I will work on those character traits that are hard to change. I will aim for victory within victory.