Omer – Day 13

Barukh ata Adonay, Eloheynu Melekh ha-olam, asher kid’shanu b’mitzvotav v’zivanu al s’firat haOmer.

Blessed be the Eternal God, Ruler of the universe, who makes us holy through Mitzvot and has commanded us to count the Omer.

Hayom yom shlosh-esrey laOmer shehem shavua ehad ve shisha yammim laOmer.

Today is day thirteen of the Omer, which is one week and six days of the Omer.

Yesod be Gevura – foundation within strength; passion within limits

What is the foundation of my strength? There are passionate days when doing the next thing comes super-easy, but mostly, that sure isn’t it. No, I’d have to say it’s stick-to-it-iveness. Stubbornness. Sheer, stupid, pigheadedness. I just keep doing that stuff. Sometimes it gets me into trouble – doing the wrong thing over and over is very unlikely to lead to good results. Other times, eventually, as I keep banging my head against the same wall, the wall shatters. It’s probably not the best place to find strength in (you wouldn’t believe the headaches one gets banging against that wall) but it is mine. It is Jewish. It’s how we’ve survived as a people, as a culture, as a nation and as a religion. Right or wrong, we keep doing that thing, over and over again.

How do I want to grow in this area? The Omer is a time of growth, after all. I want to explore more and more why certain ways in which I live make it to that “keep doing it” spot, and put more good, loving activities there, and I want to stubbornly, persistently, and with determination keep trying to stop those activities that harm me, even if it means I have to change something.

Today, I will persist in making healthy changes, and I will laugh at the paradox that my life continues to be.

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Posted on May 6, 2016, in Nissan, Omer and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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