Counting the Omer – Day 40
Barukh ata Adonay, Eloheinu, melekh ha’olam, asher kid’shanu b’mitzvotav v’tzivanu al sfirat ha-omer.
Blessed are You, Adonay our God, ruler of the universe, who makes us holy with mitzvot and gives us this opportunity to count the Omer.
Today is day forty, which is five weeks and five days of the Omer. Hayom yom arbaim she hem hamisha shavuot ve hamisha yammim laOmer.
Today is Hod be Yesod, gratitude within sexuality, humility within intimacy
It isn’t a place one should need to be grateful. Grateful for affection? For intimacy? There’s a broken-ness to that, suggesting a paucity of love. That’s with my head though, the first thought that comes to my mind. I can do better. I remember that feeling of gratitude for the existence of some of the people in my life – that feeling where I looked at them and thought “I can’t believe how lucky I am.” That’s a gratitude that comes from the humility that love brings on, the understanding that I am flawed (as is my beloved) and that my beloved is amazing (as am I) and that I am very lucky to have found someone who continues to love me nevertheless. That gratitude springs up in my heart naturally and easily, and it doesn’t require thinking. That gratitude is resentment free and beautifully simple.
Today, we remind ourselves how lucky we are to have the amazing people we have in our lives.