Counting the Omer – Day 39
Barukh ata Adonay, Eloheinu, melekh ha’olam, asher kid’shanu b’mitzvotav v’tzivanu al sfirat ha-omer.
Blessed are You, Adonay our God, ruler of the universe, who makes us holy with mitzvot and gives us this opportunity to count the Omer.
Today is day thirty nine, which is five weeks and four days of the Omer. Hayom yom shloshim ve tesha she hem hamisha shavuot ve arba’a yammim laOmer.
Today is Netzakh be Yesod, victory within sexuality, conquest within intimacy
It shouldn’t be a battle. You shouldn’t have to think about fighting your way to intimacy. If you’re with a loved one, sharing an intimate moment, and in your head, you think, “I win, you lose!” then something is wrong – very wrong. There are relationships in which the connection is so broken that the only thing the two people involved can think about is who wins. Any kind of conquest in relationship just isn’t – that kind of win is a loss for both sides, since it indicates a communication fail. There is a different kind of winning, however. There is that feeling of satisfaction at having connected to someone so well that it feels like a victory. In that moment, when differences have been overcome enough so that true communication and intimacy are possible, you might think, “we win.” Now, that’s a victory.
Today, we check that in relationships, our win is not at anyone else’s expense.