Counting the Omer – Day 19
Barukh ata Adonay, Eloheinu, melekh ha’olam, asher kid’shanu b’mitzvotav v’tzivanu al sfirat ha-omer.
Blessed are You, Adonay our God, ruler of the universe, who makes us holy with mitzvot and gives us this opportunity to count the Omer.
Today is day nineteen which is two weeks and five days of the Omer. Hayom yom tisha-es’re she hem shtey shavuot ve hamisha yammim laOmer.
Today is Hod be Tiferet, gratitude within beauty, humility within grace.
Am I grateful for anything connected to beauty? Well, when the weather is somewhere between raining and snowing and one is in a school full of the usual graffiti, cheerful posters, and uniforms, it’s hard to find beauty. It’s hard to be grateful. Sure, one can say “I’m grateful for the bits of beauty I can find here and there” and one can try to look for them, but it just feels so forced. It’s nowhere near as pretty as the time that…It’s nothing like that day when I… And that memory – that is a beauty I can appreciate, one I can be truly grateful for. I realize that I’ve created a bank of pretty things in my head, and with humility, I express my gratitude for these memories.
Today, we remember beauty even when not surrounded by it, and express gratitude for our amazing memories.